The Pursuit of Happiness!!!

You are driving down a highway, smooth road, no traffic, no lousy horns, no nudging, no overtaking, you are effortlessly gliding down the road on the fifth gear, that's what I call smooth. Wish life's like that, BUT NO life's not like this at all. Life's more like a road after heavy rains with gravel coming out, huge pits full of water where you hardly can judge how deep the pit is and as soon as go over the pit the jolt just twists your neck badly, that's how life most of the times.

Now as a famous saying goes "Our life is the sum of choices we make", but then why is that there is so much of stress around the choices we have to make in our lives, every sphere of life becomes chaotic just when we are faced with options everything falls apart, when we at least need the other stuff in place. Why does all decision may it be personal or professional instead of making us feel empowered leaves us feeling helpless and deprived?

Why can't we rationally take decisions and move on, why do emotions make you keep going over and over the decisions already taken? Why can't life be harmonious and peaceful?

Life of a Dreamer!!!!

Hopping from one dream to another, from one fascination to another, life keeps throwing stuff at your face and you keep battling one after the other, always on a rocker roller ride.

When I a was kid I wanted to be an astronomer, I convinced my sister to buy me a telescope as my birthday gift(I was a very demanding little kid back then and my sweet sister was like a genie for me.) But I had to go to hostel and the plan to buy a telescope was dropped.
Today my roommate bought a new camera and the carry bag had an image of the kind of telescope i wanted to buy and that took me back the memory lane. Eight years have passed and I have been moving on from one dream to another. And guess what I am a software professional now with more and more time to dream about a more exciting work life(not that I have less work but it is such an unexciting job I actually dream while I am working and besides that I've been doing the same kinda stuff for the last 3 years, OK hang on it can also be that I am too good at my work....).

But each dream I hop from still stays dormant in some corner of my head and comes back sometimes to remind me that I better do something in my life that gives me true happiness, the satisfaction at the end of the day of spending my time on something worthwhile.

Weekend Retreat

It was my turn to Enjoy and I sure did have a rocking weekend with WALL-E, trekking trip and ROCK ON. Friday evening was for a computer animation flick WALL-E, I must say a very cute movie and pretty different from some of the animation movies I have seen lately.

Saturday a few of my friends and I decided to get away from the city to experience the silence of a thick jungle and being up close and personal with nature. So we headed to Rajiv Gandhi Tiger reserve which is around 200km from Hyderabad. There are a lot of hidden water falls in this jungle and we went to two such falls.

Mallela Lodhi untouched not encroached by people, you get there by walking about a kilometer inside thick forest at the edge of mountain, which gives a nice view and has good echo effect. Echo, yep we were the ones disturbing the silence of the place. So after some more walking we could hear the sound of the water falling from a distance. But we could only see the fall when we reached the place. The view of the fall was splendid. Standing under the fall felt as if soul was quenched of its eternal thirst.

After enjoying there for two hours we headed for another waterfall, a more magnificent fall called Malella theertham. Its surrounded by a thick canopy of trees, sunlight does not penetrate much so the place very cool just the prefect temperature so sit back and relax in the lap of nature. But I guess not everything can go perfectly well so there were few insolent people to spoil the fun. But other than that the place was perfect. And so was the trip. Now was the time head back home but on the way back through the forest we were all quite alert to catch the glimpse of some wildlife but no luck!!!

After a good night sleep it was time to get ready for another interesting day. I met a college buddy of mine and went for to catch the new flick ROCK ON, well it is definitely a rocking movie. A must watch again. After the movie we went for a lavish lunch and lots of chatting. Then I got down to doing what I do best lazed around at home watched TV and enjoyed a hot cup of tea.

Wow that was a lot of activity for one weekend but I loved every minute of it. That's how I want to live do what I love doing and enjoy every single moment.

Miles to Go before I sleep!!!

I could not see beyond GMAT when I was preparing for it, now that I am done with it I see there is still a long way to go before I achieve what I am striving for, for a long time - MBA. Got to get started with essays now. So September is devoted to Essay writing. I am planing to apply to Indian School Business(India), Asian Institute of Management(Philippines), National University of Singapore(Singapore), Great Lakes(India), Nanyang Technical University(Singapore) and International Management Institute(India).

Writing Essays really scare me because I feel I am hardy a creative person, my strength is definitely not creativity. But I really wanna make it to one of these above mentioned colleges So got to do what I got to do....

Emotions mess up my head

Sometimes I feel defenceless in front of my emotions...that's what is happening these days. I know I get over things in sometime but the anxiety is killing me right now.

Someone tell me I am a fool to fall prey to feelings and emotions every time when I know all I'll eventually end up is agony....

Good Moringgggggggggggggggggggggggg.......

Its been sometime since I last visited the blog. We'll today I am a little excited my parents are coming to meet me and we plan to go to Rajmundhry together. I hope it'll be an refreshing trip.

Life is turning into a puzzle with all plans getting dropped. I was pretty excited about our business plan but b'coz of money crunch had to drop the plan.
Thats the time when reality hits, all this while I use to believe that as long as you can fulfill all your needs you got enough money but now I realize as long as you can't fulfill your dreams you haven't got enough money....

But I still know and understand that money is not everything in life but yes you do need to alter a lot for your plans because it.

So I am sticking around in the job I would have quit three months down the line and would have been a free bird all on my own... wow... but again I can only dream of doing this as long as I don't know what I am doing next.....

But one thing I am pretty sure is that I'll be out of this IT industry soon...

Have to start my GMAT prep, all the best to me and hope I come to the right frame of mind soon as I am feeling very sad these days....